My heart

So I talked with a good friend a lot tonight and i'm starting to understand more about myself and what God is doing in my life all the time. i see the changes He has already made in my life and i just stand amazed at how completely different my life was then and now. God has made some HUGE changes and there is no denying that. i know He is searching my heart and helping me to discover who i really am on the inside. without family influence, without colton, just who i am on my own. i have been battling with some rejection issues and my self confidence in who i am as a person is definitely not as strong as it once was. colton tells me everyday how beautiful and wonderful i am inside and out but when satan has a hold of that part of you it is hard to see for yourself. God is slowly transforming my eyes to be able to see myself the way that He sees me. which is a beautiful princess of the most high king. it is hard to go through all the major changes i have been through without family. colton is an amazing partner and there is no doubt that God has filled in the gaps with other loving, caring and strong christian women but there is something about being rejected by family that is hard to overcome. i have grown so much this past year and can't wait to see what God is going to do with the rest of my life if He has already done all this in such a short amount of time. i will continue to share everything He does for us! thank you all for the love and support you have shown! i love you all!