Thoughts

I know that one of the main reasons for a blog is to get on and write your thoughts and since I hardly ever do that (b/c I hardly have time to breathe) I thought I would spill a little of my heart to you. This last couple of months has been really hard. I didn't have the best pregnancy ever and now that my sweet precious baby is here, I feel like I haven't slept in months. It is hard not having any family around when you have a new baby. Sometimes I would just like an hour or two of peace but I don't get it. I love living here in Lubbock and we have some of the most amazing friends in the entire world but I would love to be able to call my grandma or mother in law and say hey can I get an hour to take a shower??? Colton has been great and I long for 5 oclock to come so I can say have a sweet baby and cook a little dinner. My best friend Monica has helped a lot though. She came over almost every day for a couple of weeks after we had Caleb to help me and Jack and Darla helped a lot too! I'm glad Monica has taken me in like family and I love being the daughter she never had. We pray every Monday night and I love doing that with her. She and Londa have been the most amazing spiritual leaders I could have ever asked for. On another note, I didn't know having a baby was so hard. Everyone tells you that but you never truly understand until you have one of your own. The love I feel for him is undescribable. I didn't know I could love something so much. I know that it will get easier but breast feeding still isn't going well and I have now started on some suppliments call feenugreek. Maybe they will help... Sorry for the long rambling session I just wanted to tell my heart for a little while. Thanks God for using everything that Satan has planned for evil, to Your good. God has moved in amazing ways lately and I see Him all around in everything we do. Colton just got a new job. The job of his dreams. It all started with me calling Heartline to volunteer. Then getting a job. Then getting to know Londa and Dave on a close level. Sharing my heart with her that he wanted a new job. A girl randomly quitting and God putting Colton on Londa's heart for the position. Isn't He amazing? If I could only tell you some of the other things He has done lately you wouldn't believe me. Anyways our lives have flipped upside down for the better. When everything around us seems to be crashing down, the economy, family, God is building my family up! To wrap up, our lives have been so blessed and I couldn't be happier with where God has me in this season. We were all created for such a time as this and there is a reason for everything. I can't wait to see what God is going to do next! Colton is already talking more kids but I told him we have to at least start sleeping through the night for MONTHS before I would consider it! My next post will be back to normal I promise!!!!! God bless and keep!